Juggling It All

I begin to write this while I am angry. Because what better way to get your feelings out- than on paper and try for some clarity on where the anger is coming? 

It seems that since I have had children my biggest struggle has been finding balance in my roles-mother-wife-business owner-friend. I am one of those women that want to do it all. This gets me in trouble more then I would like. I over commit, I stress myself out, and then I wonder how I got there? Knowing I did this to myself. 

My husband and I are constantly checking in with our calendars and trying to make our lives run as smoothly as we can. But sometimes we make mistakes and sometimes we feel like rock stars because of how well we are doing. So, where did the anger come from in the first place? I can now see that it comes from a place that is not my true self but from fear. Fear that I am not doing enough, or that I am failing in one way or another. 

 I’ve realized there isn’t a right or wrong way to do this. For me, I know I need to give myself more time to the roles of my life. But, I also know I will fall short in at least one of them every day. So how do we find the balance? I say YES a lot. I mean a lot. I need to say NO more. A lot of the struggle for me is saying yes to everything. If I don’t I feel guilty and then there’s this cycle. You know the one. Make space for yourself, this is when I truly find balance. Things are hectic in my mind and in my life when I don’t put myself first which for me is my yoga practice. So the best advice I can give- be willing to forgive yourself when you fall short, give yourself space to fail, tell yourself its ok. Take time for yourself and don’t feel guilty about it and lastly, go to bed early and try again tomorrow.